Empty Heaviness

Awaked, dressed, breakfasted, drugged... and now mildly heavy. Depressed. Empty. I don't want to go back to bed. I do want to continue just sitting here, only listening to music and looking up the lyrics as each song plays.

Only two primary tasks this Monday: sometime today complete weight training routine and mid day have a first date watching a movie at Star. Thinking about workout makes me instantly ask "why?" Thinking about the date makes me wonder stressfully if it will actually happen.

Update: The date cancelled. I suppose the good part is that I can finish my laundry in order to be able to wear my favorite shorts at the gym.